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Wednesday, May 4, 2011

This Week is a Great Weight Loss Week!!!

As I began typing the title for this post I had full intentions on letting you in early on my weight loss this week. My actual weigh in day is not until Friday but I'm just so stinking excited about this week, you'll have to wait until then for the posted results. It seems everything fell into place this week - THANK YOU BODY!! I needed a pick me up'er after last weeks -1.5lb weigh in. I can finally write about almost being out of the 220's...I can't believe it ya'll!! I can't believe I'm almost out of them and it feels great! Just a few short weeks ago, on March 25th I wrote a blog about "almost being out of the 230's" Now here I am writing one about the 220's. It's just so surreal to me for several reasons.
1. I'm actually doing it.
2. I am in control of my body. 
3. I'm actually doing it.

So hopefully this will be my final post while in the 220's. I'm moving on to bigger and better things, eh, scratch that, make that smaller and better things. Fat, I don't have time for you anymore as I have a life to live for myself.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Never stop pushing yourself

Running low on motivation, desire, willpower, and/or strength is completely normal. However, whether you continue to push forward and break thru barriers or throw your towel down and quit comes down to one thing. How bad you want it!? Derek Redmond had a goal and that goal was to cross the finish line. He did not let anything stand in his way of his goal, he did it! He won a lot that day by not giving up, he proved to himself that 'with BELIEVE all things are possible".


Friday Weigh-In

I realized I didn't make a post for my Friday Weigh-In on April 29th.


Not much progress this week...hoping for more in the next week. This girl has a goal to meet.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Intimidated by Lifting?


Are you intimidated by lifting weights? Do you think sweating your tail off for an hour doing insane cardio is best for fat loss?

Read Rachel Mac's Blog on lifting. She gives you a complete work out plan that works.

Read it here THE RACHEL MAC WORKOUT

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Jamie Eason Words of Wisdom

Here are some recent status updates from Jamie Eason on Facebook that are very helpful.

If I keep my lean muscle mass greater than my bodyfat, I stay lean and do not require as much cardio. Ladies...BUILD MUSCLE!

And, YES, too much cardio will inhibit muscle growth. If you are eating a consistently clean diet, at regular interverals throughout the day, you want those calories to go toward supporting mucle growth when you weight train. How much do you do? Devote at least 4 weeks to weight training only and then start incorporating cardio a few times a week.

Simplify you guys:

  • First 4 weeks - clean up your diet, aim for 5 to 6 days a week of weight training, lifting heavier (8 to 10 reps) *if beginner, use moderate weight *NO CARDIO
  • Second 4 weeks - be consistent on food, continue weight training schedule but incoporate drop-sets & super-sets, add 3 or 4 days a week of 30 to 40 min cardio
  • Final 4 weeks - Try a carb cycle or carb timing (around weight training only), higher reps (12 to 20 reps), incoporate active rests, plyos, sprints (every other day)
*Will be providing a detailed program very soon on Bodybuilding.com

I suggest no cardio for the first 4 wks of a program b/c it will allow you to devote all your energy toward building muscle. Adding cardio too soon will inhibit muscle growth.

It is too difficult to tell when you have allocated just enough calories toward weights & calories toward cardio, so as not to sacrifice muscle. Have faith!!! The later stages will even things out b/c the muscle you built will create tone & burn more calories than cardio alone.

Excessive cardio is NOT the answer! It's being consistent and totally devoted to clean eating! Adding weight training will then reshape and lift your body. Cardio is for heart health and for getting super lean, if that becomes your goal, but it is NOT the answer to a lasting transformation unless you plan to do cardio every single day for the rest of your life and who wants that??

A clean diet first, resistance training next, and cardio last!!

Why do we lift a different major muscle group each day? Because it allows us o devote all of our energy toward growing one particular muscle. Training multiple muscle groups expends more energy with less focus being given to increase mass. That method (training multiple muscle groups) comes later, once you're seeing hypertrophy (bigger muscles). Be patient!

I've said this before...you only burn calories WHILE doing cardio, but if you lift weights and manage to grow muscle, you will be burning calories ALL THE TIME!!

Monday, April 25, 2011

No Looking Back

Today, my friend Tabitha and I went walking. We had a goal to walk 10 miles and it was a hell of a goal. The mere thought of walking 10 miles scared the hell out of me but it was something that I wanted to conquer. So we set out together knowing that neither one of us would want to quit on the other. The last 2-3 miles were close to pure hell. We were definitely feeling the burn/pain at this time. However, we did it!!! We walked 10.8 miles in 3 hours 45 minutes and burned 740+ calories!! I have 2 blisters on each foot and Tabitha has a blister on her ankle and had to ice it but WE DID IT. It felt so good to conquer it and say we did it. I hope this is something that we can do once, maybe even twice a month.

Friday, April 22, 2011

Friday Weigh-In

Well, I am rather pleased with this weeks weigh in. It's a breath of fresh air after last weeks. You know, speaking of last week I have no idea what I was thinking when I got so down on myself! I had just come off of a 4 day binge and eating in my old ways. When I came home from MO on Monday I was 232.6 (I think) and Friday's weigh in was 228.9. That is a 3.7lb loss for that week! I was bummed because the Friday prior to leaving for Missouri I weighed 228.9 as well, so I looked at it as the scale didn't budge. I didn't factor in the weight that I put back on that I had to once again lose.

This week went pretty smoothly as far as any eating challenges go. I did really well until yesterday, when I caved and ate 2.5 Krystal burgers and a small fry, then I ate one bite each out of my sons hamburgers that night. I worked out every day this week, Thursday I worked out twice :) Last night was the first time in over 4 years that I lifted weights and it felt great. I didn't realize how much I missed that feeling. I have to give much love to my friends Tabitha and Kendra for pushing me to go to the gym last night.

DRUM ROLL PLEASE......

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Why Exercise Won't Make You Thin


As I write this, tomorrow is Tuesday, which is a cardio day. I'll spend five minutes warming up on the VersaClimber, a towering machine that requires you to move your arms and legs simultaneously. Then I'll do 30 minutes on a stair mill. On Wednesday a personal trainer will work me like a farm animal for an hour, sometimes to the point that I am dizzy — an abuse for which I pay as much as I spend on groceries in a week. Thursday is "body wedge" class, which involves another exercise contraption, this one a large foam wedge from which I will push myself up in various hateful ways for an hour. Friday will bring a 5.5-mile run, the extra half-mile my grueling expiation of any gastronomical indulgences during the week.

I have exercised like this — obsessively, a bit grimly — for years, but recently I began to wonder: Why am I doing this? Except for a two-year period at the end of an unhappy relationship — a period when I self-medicated with lots of Italian desserts — I have never been overweight. One of the most widely accepted, commonly repeated assumptions in our culture is that if you exercise, you will lose weight. But I exercise all the time, and since I ended that relationship and cut most of those desserts, my weight has returned to the same 163 lb. it has been most of my adult life. I still have gut fat that hangs over my belt when I sit. Why isn't all the exercise wiping it out?

(Read "The Year in Medicine 2008: From A to Z.")

It's a question many of us could ask. More than 45 million Americans now belong to a health club, up from 23 million in 1993. We spend some $19 billion a year on gym memberships. Of course, some people join and never go. Still, as one major study — the Minnesota Heart Survey — found, more of us at least say we exercise regularly. The survey ran from 1980, when only 47% of respondents said they engaged in regular exercise, to 2000, when the figure had grown to 57%.

And yet obesity figures have risen dramatically in the same period: a third of Americans are obese, and another third count as overweight by the Federal Government's definition. Yes, it's entirely possible that those of us who regularly go to the gym would weigh even more if we exercised less. But like many other people, I get hungry after I exercise, so I often eat more on the days I work out than on the days I don't. Could exercise actually be keeping me from losing weight?

(Watch TIME's video "How to Lose Hundreds of Pounds.")

The conventional wisdom that exercise is essential for shedding pounds is actually fairly new. As recently as the 1960s, doctors routinely advised against rigorous exercise, particularly for older adults who could injure themselves. Today doctors encourage even their oldest patients to exercise, which is sound advice for many reasons: People who regularly exercise are at significantly lower risk for all manner of diseases — those of the heart in particular. They less often develop cancer, diabetes and many other illnesses. But the past few years of obesity research show that the role of exercise in weight loss has been wildly overstated.

(Read "Losing Weight: Can Exercise Trump Genes?")

"In general, for weight loss, exercise is pretty useless," says Eric Ravussin, chair in diabetes and metabolism at Louisiana State University and a prominent exercise researcher. Many recent studies have found that exercise isn't as important in helping people lose weight as you hear so regularly in gym advertisements or on shows like The Biggest Loser — or, for that matter, from magazines like this one.

The basic problem is that while it's true that exercise burns calories and that you must burn calories to lose weight, exercise has another effect: it can stimulate hunger. That causes us to eat more, which in turn can negate the weight-loss benefits we just accrued. Exercise, in other words, isn't necessarily helping us lose weight. It may even be making it harder.


The Compensation Problem

Earlier this year, the peer-reviewed journal PLoS ONE — PLoS is the nonprofit Public Library of Science — published a remarkable study supervised by a colleague of Ravussin's, Dr. Timothy Church, who holds the rather grand title of chair in health wisdom at LSU. Church's team randomly assigned into four groups 464 overweight women who didn't regularly exercise. Women in three of the groups were asked to work out with a personal trainer for 72 min., 136 min., and 194 min. per week, respectively, for six months. Women in the fourth cluster, the control group, were told to maintain their usual physical-activity routines. All the women were asked not to change their dietary habits and to fill out monthly medical-symptom questionnaires.

The findings were surprising. On average, the women in all the groups, even the control group, lost weight, but the women who exercised — sweating it out with a trainer several days a week for six months — did not lose significantly more weight than the control subjects did. (The control-group women may have lost weight because they were filling out those regular health forms, which may have prompted them to consume fewer doughnuts.) Some of the women in each of the four groups actually gained weight, some more than 10 lb. each.

What's going on here? Church calls it compensation, but you and I might know it as the lip-licking anticipation of perfectly salted, golden-brown French fries after a hard trip to the gym. Whether because exercise made them hungry or because they wanted to reward themselves (or both), most of the women who exercised ate more than they did before they started the experiment. Or they compensated in another way, by moving around a lot less than usual after they got home.

(Read "Run For Your Lives.")

The findings are important because the government and various medical organizations routinely prescribe more and more exercise for those who want to lose weight. In 2007 the American College of Sports Medicine and the American Heart Association issued new guidelines stating that "to lose weight ... 60 to 90 minutes of physical activity may be necessary." That's 60 to 90 minutes on most days of the week, a level that not only is unrealistic for those of us trying to keep or find a job but also could easily produce, on the basis of Church's data, ravenous compensatory eating.

It's true that after six months of working out, most of the exercisers in Church's study were able to trim their waistlines slightly — by about an inch. Even so, they lost no more overall body fat than the control group did. Why not?

Church, who is 41 and has lived in Baton Rouge for nearly three years, has a theory. "I see this anecdotally amongst, like, my wife's friends," he says. "They're like, 'Ah, I'm running an hour a day, and I'm not losing any weight.'" He asks them, "What are you doing after you run?" It turns out one group of friends was stopping at Starbucks for muffins afterward. Says Church: "I don't think most people would appreciate that, wow, you only burned 200 or 300 calories, which you're going to neutralize with just half that muffin."

(Read "Too Fat? Read Your E-mail.")

You might think half a muffin over an entire day wouldn't matter much, particularly if you exercise regularly. After all, doesn't exercise turn fat to muscle, and doesn't muscle process excess calories more efficiently than fat does?

Yes, although the muscle-fat relationship is often misunderstood. According to calculations published in the journal Obesity Research by a Columbia University team in 2001, a pound of muscle burns approximately six calories a day in a resting body, compared with the two calories that a pound of fat burns. Which means that after you work out hard enough to convert, say, 10 lb. of fat to muscle — a major achievement — you would be able to eat only an extra 40 calories per day, about the amount in a teaspoon of butter, before beginning to gain weight. Good luck with that.

Fundamentally, humans are not a species that evolved to dispose of many extra calories beyond what we need to live. Rats, among other species, have a far greater capacity to cope with excess calories than we do because they have more of a dark-colored tissue called brown fat. Brown fat helps produce a protein that switches off little cellular units called mitochondria, which are the cells' power plants: they help turn nutrients into energy. When they're switched off, animals don't get an energy boost. Instead, the animals literally get warmer. And as their temperature rises, calories burn effortlessly.

(See TIME's health and medicine covers.)

Because rodents have a lot of brown fat, it's very difficult to make them obese, even when you force-feed them in labs. But humans — we're pathetic. We have so little brown fat that researchers didn't even report its existence in adults until earlier this year. That's one reason humans can gain weight with just an extra half-muffin a day: we almost instantly store most of the calories we don't need in our regular ("white") fat cells.

All this helps explain why our herculean exercise over the past 30 years — all the personal trainers, StairMasters and VersaClimbers; all the Pilates classes and yoga retreats and fat camps — hasn't made us thinner. After we exercise, we often crave sugary calories like those in muffins or in "sports" drinks like Gatorade. A standard 20-oz. bottle of Gatorade contains 130 calories. If you're hot and thirsty after a 20-minute run in summer heat, it's easy to guzzle that bottle in 20 seconds, in which case the caloric expenditure and the caloric intake are probably a wash. From a weight-loss perspective, you would have been better off sitting on the sofa knitting.


Self-Control Is like a Muscle

Many people assume that weight is mostly a matter of willpower — that we can learn both to exercise and to avoid muffins and Gatorade. A few of us can, but evolution did not build us to do this for very long. In 2000 the journal Psychological Bulletin published a paper by psychologists Mark Muraven and Roy Baumeister in which they observed that self-control is like a muscle: it weakens each day after you use it. If you force yourself to jog for an hour, your self-regulatory capacity is proportionately enfeebled. Rather than lunching on a salad, you'll be more likely to opt for pizza.

Some of us can will ourselves to overcome our basic psychology, but most of us won't be very successful. "The most powerful determinant of your dietary intake is your energy expenditure," says Steven Gortmaker, who heads Harvard's Prevention Research Center on Nutrition and Physical Activity. "If you're more physically active, you're going to get hungry and eat more." Gortmaker, who has studied childhood obesity, is even suspicious of the playgrounds at fast-food restaurants. "Why would they build those?" he asks. "I know it sounds kind of like conspiracy theory, but you have to think, if a kid plays five minutes and burns 50 calories, he might then go inside and consume 500 calories or even 1,000."

(Read "Why Kids' Exercise Matters Less Than We Think.")

Last year the International Journal of Obesity published a paper by Gortmaker and Kendrin Sonneville of Children's Hospital Boston noting that "there is a widespread assumption that increasing activity will result in a net reduction in any energy gap" — energy gap being the term scientists use for the difference between the number of calories you use and the number you consume. But Gortmaker and Sonneville found in their 18-month study of 538 students that when kids start to exercise, they end up eating more — not just a little more, but an average of 100 calories more than they had just burned.

If evolution didn't program us to lose weight through exercise, what did it program us to do? Doesn't exercise do anything?

Sure. It does plenty. In addition to enhancing heart health and helping prevent disease, exercise improves your mental health and cognitive ability. A study published in June in the journal Neurology found that older people who exercise at least once a week are 30% more likely to maintain cognitive function than those who exercise less. Another study, released by the University of Alberta a few weeks ago, found that people with chronic back pain who exercise four days a week have 36% less disability than those who exercise only two or three days a week.

But there's some confusion about whether it is exercise — sweaty, exhausting, hunger-producing bursts of activity done exclusively to benefit our health — that leads to all these benefits or something far simpler: regularly moving during our waking hours. We all need to move more — the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention says our leisure-time physical activity (including things like golfing, gardening and walking) has decreased since the late 1980s, right around the time the gym boom really exploded. But do we need to stress our bodies at the gym?

Look at kids. In May a team of researchers at Peninsula Medical School in the U.K. traveled to Amsterdam to present some surprising findings to the European Congress on Obesity. The Peninsula scientists had studied 206 kids, ages 7 to 11, at three schools in and around Plymouth, a city of 250,000 on the southern coast of England. Kids at the first school, an expensive private academy, got an average of 9.2 hours per week of scheduled, usually rigorous physical education. Kids at the two other schools — one in a village near Plymouth and the other an urban school — got just 2.4 hours and 1.7 hours of PE per week, respectively.

To understand just how much physical activity the kids were getting, the Peninsula team had them wear ActiGraphs, light but sophisticated devices that measure not only the amount of physical movement the body engages in but also its intensity. During four one-week periods over consecutive school terms, the kids wore the ActiGraphs nearly every waking moment.

And no matter how much PE they got during school hours, when you look at the whole day, the kids from the three schools moved the same amount, at about the same intensity. The kids at the fancy private school underwent significantly more physical activity before 3 p.m., but overall they didn't move more. "Once they get home, if they are very active in school, they are probably staying still a bit more because they've already expended so much energy," says Alissa Frémeaux, a biostatistician who helped conduct the study. "The others are more likely to grab a bike and run around after school."

Another British study, this one from the University of Exeter, found that kids who regularly move in short bursts — running to catch a ball, racing up and down stairs to collect toys — are just as healthy as kids who participate in sports that require vigorous, sustained exercise.

Could pushing people to exercise more actually be contributing to our obesity problem? In some respects, yes. Because exercise depletes not just the body's muscles but the brain's self-control "muscle" as well, many of us will feel greater entitlement to eat a bag of chips during that lazy time after we get back from the gym. This explains why exercise could make you heavier — or at least why even my wretched four hours of exercise a week aren't eliminating all my fat. It's likely that I am more sedentary during my nonexercise hours than I would be if I didn't exercise with such Puritan fury. If I exercised less, I might feel like walking more instead of hopping into a cab; I might have enough energy to shop for food, cook and then clean instead of ordering a satisfyingly greasy burrito.


Closing the Energy Gap

The problem ultimately is about not exercise itself but the way we've come to define it. Many obesity researchers now believe that very frequent, low-level physical activity — the kind humans did for tens of thousands of years before the leaf blower was invented — may actually work better for us than the occasional bouts of exercise you get as a gym rat. "You cannot sit still all day long and then have 30 minutes of exercise without producing stress on the muscles," says Hans-Rudolf Berthoud, a neurobiologist at LSU's Pennington Biomedical Research Center who has studied nutrition for 20 years. "The muscles will ache, and you may not want to move after. But to burn calories, the muscle movements don't have to be extreme. It would be better to distribute the movements throughout the day."

For his part, Berthoud rises at 5 a.m. to walk around his neighborhood several times. He also takes the stairs when possible. "Even if people can get out of their offices, out from in front of their computers, they go someplace like the mall and then take the elevator," he says. "This is the real problem, not that we don't go to the gym enough."

(Read "Is There a Laziness Gene?")

I was skeptical when Berthoud said this. Don't you need to raise your heart rate and sweat in order to strengthen your cardiovascular system? Don't you need to push your muscles to the max in order to build them?

Actually, it's not clear that vigorous exercise like running carries more benefits than a moderately strenuous activity like walking while carrying groceries. You regularly hear about the benefits of exercise in news stories, but if you read the academic papers on which these stories are based, you frequently see that the research subjects who were studied didn't clobber themselves on the elliptical machine. A routine example: in June the Association for Psychological Science issued a news release saying that "physical exercise ... may indeed preserve or enhance various aspects of cognitive functioning." But in fact, those who had better cognitive function merely walked more and climbed more stairs. They didn't even walk faster; walking speed wasn't correlated with cognitive ability.

There's also growing evidence that when it comes to preventing certain diseases, losing weight may be more important than improving cardiovascular health. In June, Northwestern University researchers released the results of the longest observational study ever to investigate the relationship between aerobic fitness and the development of diabetes. The results? Being aerobically fit was far less important than having a normal body mass index in preventing the disease. And as we have seen, exercise often does little to help heavy people reach a normal weight.

(Read "Physical Fitness — How Not to Get Sick.")

So why does the belief persist that exercise leads to weight loss, given all the scientific evidence to the contrary? Interestingly, until the 1970s, few obesity researchers promoted exercise as critical for weight reduction. As recently as 1992, when a stout Bill Clinton became famous for his jogging and McDonald's habits, the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition published an article that began, "Recently, the interest in the potential of adding exercise to the treatment of obesity has increased." The article went on to note that incorporating exercise training into obesity treatment had led to "inconsistent" results. "The increased energy expenditure obtained by training may be compensated by a decrease in non-training physical activities," the authors wrote.

Then how did the exercise-to-lose-weight mantra become so ingrained? Public-health officials have been reluctant to downplay exercise because those who are more physically active are, overall, healthier. Plus, it's hard even for experts to renounce the notion that exercise is essential for weight loss. For years, psychologist Kelly Brownell ran a lab at Yale that treated obese patients with the standard, drilled-into-your-head combination of more exercise and less food. "What we found was that the treatment of obesity was very frustrating," he says. Only about 5% of participants could keep the weight off, and although those 5% were more likely to exercise than those who got fat again, Brownell says if he were running the program today, "I would probably reorient toward food and away from exercise." In 2005, Brownell co-founded Yale's Rudd Center for Food Policy and Obesity, which focuses on food marketing and public policy — not on encouraging more exercise.

Some research has found that the obese already "exercise" more than most of the rest of us. In May, Dr. Arn Eliasson of the Walter Reed Army Medical Center reported the results of a small study that found that overweight people actually expend significantly more calories every day than people of normal weight — 3,064 vs. 2,080. He isn't the first researcher to reach this conclusion. As science writer Gary Taubes noted in his 2007 book Good Calories, Bad Calories: Fats, Carbs, and the Controversial Science of Diet and Health, "The obese tend to expend more energy than lean people of comparable height, sex, and bone structure, which means their metabolism is typically burning off more calories rather than less."

In short, it's what you eat, not how hard you try to work it off, that matters more in losing weight. You should exercise to improve your health, but be warned: fiery spurts of vigorous exercise could lead to weight gain. I love how exercise makes me feel, but tomorrow I might skip the VersaClimber — and skip the blueberry bar that is my usual postexercise reward.

Read more at Time Magazine





 











 

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

What's that Smell???

It smells like smoke? Is something on fire? Oh, wait....that's ME!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Now THAT is What I'm Talking About!!!!

I knew it! I could feel it as I got out of bed this morning, I felt different. I stepped on the scale trying to redeem myself from yesterday and I'm happy I did. In all actually I didn't start eating clean until Tuesday of this week...so from Friday-Monday I was back to my old ways due to traveling for the funeral.

Read it and weep... :)

This is the FIRST time I've seen this number in over a year!!!


Friday, April 15, 2011

3 weeks 4 days Progress Picture!!!!

WOW - JUST WOW!!!!! ONLY 8 LBS DOWN BUT LOOK AT THE DIFFERENCE IN BELLY FAT!!!! HOLY MOLY!! My belly button is even starting to look different. YAYYYYY! I feel better about today's weigh in now :)







Before 3.21.11

Notice the difference in the belly button.


Friday's Weigh In...

Well, today didn't go so well. As you can see I am missing a weigh in from Friday, April 8. My husband had a loss in his family so we ended up traveling to Missouri on a very short notice. We left out Friday morning about 4 a.m. and got home Sunday night. This was my first time traveling on this new lifestyle and I was NOT prepared. I ended up having to eat fast food every meal. Fortunately for me, I felt so stinking bloated that I skipped several meals. I weighed myself the Monday after we got home and I weighed 232.6 - OUCH. That hurt! I had to lose that weight all over again that I just busted my ass the previous week to lose the first time. Well, I'm back down to 228.9 as of this morning. Yesterday I was 228.1. I really don't get it though. I REALLY pushed myself at the gym this week and ate right and I'm still 228. Seeing that I weighed 228.9 this morning after busting my ass this week really ticked me off so I said, "what the hell, it's not working anyways" and had myself a bowl of Lucky Charms for breakfast. I guess that was my "poor poor pitiful me" meal. I've lost weight A LOT quicker than this before..losing 32 lbs in 3 months during a contest by eating low calorie foods. I ended up getting pregnant shortly after so I'm not sure if the weight would have stayed off or not. I just want it off already. Oh, well - onto next week.

There is a positive thing that came from this week :) When I first began working out a month or so ago, I couldn't go faster than 2.8 mph on the treadmill without severe burning in my calves. Well...last night I went 3.1mph and I did it! It felt great!!! I also walk on a 9.5% incline at 2.5mph for 2 minutes, then 0% incline at 3.1mph for 2 minutes, etc. I've realized that when I go slower on incline it works my muscles more than when I'm walking it fast.

Friday, April 1, 2011

Friday Weigh-In

Woo Hoo!!!! This weeks verdict is in and I lost 3 lbs this week!!!! For a total loss to date of 8 lbs.
The last time I weighed 228 was February of 2010 when I said to myself I refused to weigh 230 so I went on a diet and got down to 202. However, that "diet" consisted of a prescription weight loss drug, Phentermine, that would curve my appetite. I lost the weight because I put my body into shock by not eating enough and then once I came off I gained it all back plus some. This time I'm losing weight the HEALTHY weigh. I'm never hungry and as a matter of fact sometimes uncomfortably full. But I'm doing it by eating clean. It works! 


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Some of the Things I Say to Myself

No matter how tired I am at the gym or how bad I want to quit and cut the work out short....I always manage to keep going and complete it. I thought it'd be nice to write down some of the things I tell myself for that extra push. I'd like to hear some of yours too, what do you tell yourself to keep you motivated?

Some of mine are:

BELIEVE
GO BIG OR GO HOME.
FOCUS
I CAN DO THIS
IF I QUIT I'M GOING TO FEEL LIKE SHIT AFTER I LEAVE THE GYM
I'LL FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF IF I STICK WITH IT
HOW BAD DO I WANT IT
I WILL NOT QUIT
I AM A FIREWORK (Katy Perry's song)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

16 Day Commitment Starts Today


 
So a friend of mine on Facebook, Rachel Mac, posted this status "I'm making a commitment to track EVERYTHING I eat (and all my workouts) for the next sixteen days. I'm also taking progress pictures every 4 days. Hold me to it!" The replies to that status quickly turned into "who's in??!!" So, I replied "I'm in!" and that I would blog about it. I don't think I'll take pictures because at my weight I don't think you'd really see a difference in that short amount of time - but it will help hold me accountable for the next 16 days at least.

When I was at the gym last night it was so hard to stay focused for some reason. I was still somewhat sore from the night before so it made the work out even harder. I do the elliptical for 20 minutes at different level intervals and I never look at how much longer I have. Well, I was so worn out that I looked last night and I was only 8 minutes in! I wanted to quit so bad but I kept pushing thru - I would remind myself how guilty I would feel after I left the gym had I quit. One other thing that pushed me were the words "Go Big or Go Home" that I kept repeating to myself.

Beginning today and for the next 16 days I will update this blog entry.

Tuesday, March 29th
Breakfast - 1/2 cup oatmeal (measured dry) prepared with water-small handful of dried cranberries-2 tsp Stevia, 1 orange, 5 raw almonds, 300ml of water
Mid-Morning Snack - 1 apple w/ 1 tbsp All Natural Peanut Butter w/ 500mL water
Lunch - 4 oz Chicken Breast, 1 cup veggies 1/2 brown rice (plain) w/ 500mL water
Evening Snack - 10 cherry tomatoes
Dinner - Baked Tilapia, 3 cups salad, 1 cup broccoli

Wednesday, March 30th
Breakfast - 1/2 cup oatmeal (measured dry) prepared with water-small handful of dried cranberries-1 tsp brown sugar, 1 orange, 5 raw almonds, 500ml of water (and 2 bites of Lucky Charms)
Mid-Morning Snack - NONE....ate breakfast late
Lunch - Grilled shrimp kabobs (16 medium shrimp, 1 cup red pepper/onion) 1/2 cup brown rice (one bite of Tombstone Pepperoni Pizza)

Good Riddens!!!!

I did it! I did it! I really really did it!!! Check it out ya'll  - I am out of the 230's for good!!! 7 lbs down. I AM a firework!!

*BELIEVE*

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Another One Bites the Dust!

Another pound bites the dust! Damn, I'm good! I'm annoyed though because I had plans to make it to the gym last night, even got showered and dressed only to find out they closed at 9 on Friday nights, not 10 like I had thought. It was already 8:15 by this time so it would have been a waste. Had I went to the gym I'd probably be celebrating being out of the 230's right now. I highly doubt I'll be able to celebrate tomorrow either as we're going out tonight for a friends 40th birthday and this will be my "cheat meal". I'm not looking forward to my "cheat meal" because although I know it needs to be eaten, I will beat myself up mentally and feel like complete shit after/while eating it. Then I had planned to drink tonight too, so I'll have the Bud Light calories as well??!! URRGGGHHH!

Well, here it is - eat your heart out! Down 5.1 lbs since March 21, 2011



BELIEVE



Friday, March 25, 2011

Morning of Day #5

The numbers are in......drum roll please.....

I am so excited! I bought the scale last night from Target and the cashier was an elderly lady and she proceeded to lecture me on how scales were 'bad'. She went on to say "only weigh yourself once a week and don't weigh yourself during your, you know...period" as she winks at me. HA! I'm number motivated though. Now that I know I only have 1.5 more lbs to lose until I'm out of the 230's, I'll be busting my hump even more to get out of them. When you are as large as I am small weight loss like this is not noticeable and it appears you aren't making any success until you see it for your own eyes. Just a nice little motivation.


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Journey of Eating Clean

Today is day 3 of Eating Clean and so far so good. I have constant temptation around me but I stay focused. My fridge and pantry has not been cleaned out so it still has all the junk that the rest of my family eats in it, so it's hard to not go grab a bag of chips but I stay focused on the big picture.

The 1st day I began EC my husband tempted me with take-out pizza. I thought it was rather rude knowing the struggle I was going to endure to shove "good" food in my face on the 1st day. Then I began thinking that I need to get used to denying temptation because everywhere I go there is food around me. When I'm a the gym, food commercials come on - Burger King, Red Lobster, etc. Temptation will always be there but it's up to me to form good habits and be able to deny them.

Last night (day 2) was a little harder and I caved. My husband and I got into an argument so I went to the gym for awhile then sat in a parking lot and read a book for about 2 hours. I wasn't home to eat dinner and by this time it was about 10:30 pm. I had fast food but I made as smart of a choice as possible. I went to Wendy's and got a grilled chicken sandwich with lettuce, tomato, WW bread and low fat honey mustard. I didn't upsize and I did eat one 'finger grab' of fries (maybe 3-5) before quickly putting it down. I will not let this get me down as I am strong and I will fight. This I'm sure is the first of many "slip ups" and I just need to be strong enough to pick myself back up and walk on.

Friday, March 18, 2011

Ashamed. Pitied. Lazy. Embarrassed.Regret

So here I sit motivated than ever to get fit and healthy. But this comes at a time where I've let myself go for so long that it's going to be really challenging to get to the point where I need to be to be healthy.

I took my boys to the park today and shortly after arriving this Mother and her 3 yr old son strolled in. Her and I ended up talking for a good bit and I learned something about her that made me feel ashamed. She was an avid runner, competing in 5K's, interval training and had lost 105 lbs. Then she had surgery.....on her BRAIN. They had to drill through her skull and drain fluid. That was 6 months ago. Today, she has experienced complications from the surgery and has a leak in her brain that causes daily pain/headaches in the back of her head. The leak can take 6-12 months to heal. Considering this, she still gets out and walks daily, trying her best to get back to running. She is currently walking about 5 miles a day, THAT is DETERMINATION. I looked at her and felt pity for myself. Other than being fat, I'm perfectly healthy unless laziness is a disease and I find it hard to exercise sometimes. WHAT EXCUSE DO I HAVE??? If she didn't want to exercise she could say..." I just had brain surgery 6 months ago and currently have a leak in my brain and my head is hurting today, just like it does everyday - so I'm not going to exercise." Someone would say, "I don't blame you, take it easy"...but what excuse do I have?? I can't come up with one besides pure and utter laziness. YUCK! I have let myself go for this long because I'm LAZY??? Now I have to work harder than I've ever worked before to get my body where it needs to be instead of exercising when I should have to maintain a healthy body.

I really needed to hear this story today. She is truly inspirational.

Believe

Thursday, March 17, 2011

My "I Wanna" List....

So as I was contemplating things that I wanted to be able to do once I lost weight or one of the reasons I wanted to lose weight, I kept saying, "I wanna..." at the beginning of the sentence. So, here is my "I wanna" list....




I wanna....lose weight

I wanna....have one chin

I wanna....be able to smile without looking chinese (my cheeks swallow up my eyes)

I wanna....have a jawline again

I wanna....be able to wash my ass in the shower (haha, I do now it's just hard to reach lmao)

I wanna....be able to tie my shoes by bending down, not having to pull my leg up

I wanna....not look pregnant

I wanna....have a reason to dress like a whore on Halloween

I wanna....look like my body isn't eating my head

I wanna....have arms that hang along my side and not walk like a Sumo Wrestler

I wanna....feel sexy

I wanna....wear sexy things for my husband

I wanna....be fit

I wanna....look great on the back of my husbands Harley

I wanna....make women envious

I wanna....be the Mom my kids are proud of

I wanna....wear a bathing suit

I wanna....dance again

I wanna....be heatlhy

I wanna....pass the importance of eating healthy to my children

I wanna....buy clothes at a regular store

I wanna....want to buy clothes again

I wanna....not have water retention in my legs at the age of 29

I wanna....not have my ankles/feet hurt

I wanna....become a runner

I wanna....complete a half marathon

I wanna....help and inspire others

I wanna....look and feel great

I wanna....love life again

I wanna....not be embarrassed in public

I wanna....have confidence

I wanna....have men look at me (huge confidence booster)

I wanna....say I DID IT.



So, what's on your "I wanna" list?

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

So I Really Did It

I really did it! I, ME, as in Brandee…really woke up at 5:45 a.m. got my kids up and ready for school. Once they were on the bus I, again ME, as in Brandee…went to the gym. Now, this is huge because I have 4 children ages 10,8,3,2 and my husband usually gets the older kids up for school because I get up with my 3 and 2 yr olds at night.

I hear the alarm ring and it came quick considering I didn’t hit my pillow until midnight. I didn’t want to get up – my bed was so warm and comfy, it was dark outside, the last thing I wanted to do was disturb my sleep to go to the gym. Then I remembered something my trainer said, “it all comes down to how bad you want it”. Yep, that’s all it took to get me out of the bed and moving. So there I was at 6:50 a.m busting my tail on the treadmill. I feel so accomplished, it’s great. Yes, I’m tired but here it is 9 a.m. and I don’t have to worry about the gym the rest of the day.

Oh, and as I was busting my tail – How Bad Do You Want It by Tim McGraw came on my Ipod. That is now my new inspiration.


I did it!!! YIPPEE!


B.E.L.I.E.V.E



Friday, March 11, 2011

O.M.G. I'm So Freaking EXCITED!!!!

Alright my Facebook peeps - I know you wanna know what my status was all about. I decided to post it here since Facebook only allows 420 characters - I have a lot more to say than that! HA

I'm going to copy/paste what I'm so freaking excited about below - but for now lets just say ME=FAT?? NO MORE!!!! I'll shut up and just paste my email to a certain someone. I poured my freaking heart out - yes, I'm embarrassed about what you are fixing to read but I could use a support system so I'm letting you all into my plea for help.

Here it is - my email to a "certain someone" --more about this "certain someone" later.
                                                                                            

So, I’m sitting here tonight searching through posts on the Eat Clean website trying to get the knowledge I need to change my life. I am sick and tired of being tired, fat, embarrassed, ugly, lacking self esteem, not feeling sexual, declining going out with friends because I am now “the fat one”. I’m tired of food running my life! I’m tired of being lazy and eating everything and anything because I have ACCEPTED that being fat is who I am. I learned to ACCEPT it because I don’t have the knowledge to change it. I am freaking miserable being 5’4 and 235 lbs! I’m OVER IT.

I’m sure you’ve heard sob stories before when people get motivated and they try to pump themselves up. I’ve wrote some sob stories myself before and here I sit writing one again. But this time is different, this time I REALLY mean it. I am READY. I am a married stay at home Mother to 4 children, living in Tennessee. My children are stepson Logan -10, Ashlynn -8, Phoenix -3, Jonah -2. We own a Barbershop in Nashville, TN right off of Music Row. Growing up I never had to worry about my weight. It wasn’t until I had my daughter at 20 years old that my weight problems began. Prior to my 1st pregnancy I weighed an athletic 140, I had awesome muscle tone. My friends referred to me as “Stallion”, I secretly loved it. I gained 32 lbs with my first pregnancy, the day I went into labor I weighed 172 lbs. I had no worries of losing my weight after pregnancy because after all…I never had to worry. Well within the first week of giving birth I gained 9 lbs yet my eating habits didn’t increase. I kept gaining weight, my hair started falling out, and my period never returned. When my daughter was about 11 months old I finally went to the Dr. I discovered that I had Poly Cystic Ovary Syndrome, PCOS for short. PCOS affects a great deal of things within your body, weight being one of them. One of the symptoms of PCOS is weight gain. The more you weigh the greater your symptoms yet it’s very hard to lose the weight.

I topped out at 198 and decided that I absolutely refused to weigh 200; after all I was once the girl that had the body everyone wanted. I was not the girl who weighed an obese 200 lbs. I went on my first diet. Now I don’t know too much about nutrition growing up nutrition was never a concern of my family’s so I didn’t know where to begin. I ate a lot of Special K cereal, tuna/crackers, turkey burgers and baked potatoes with barbecue sauce. That was pretty much what my diet consisted of for 3 months during a Biggest Loser Competition that I headed at my work. In those 3 months I managed to go from 198 down to 172 with lots of cardio. I did it! I had my attitude back and felt great. With the weight loss I got my menstrual cycle back! This was huge! My body was getting back on track. However, 4 months after meeting my husband we got pregnant and the weight cycle started all over, along with the PCOS symptoms. Then when my 2nd child was just 6 weeks old, we got pregnant again. I weighed 223 the day I gave birth to my 3rd child. I breastfed which is suppose to be great for losing some of the pregnancy weight but not for me, I was stuck. I tried exercising and dieting but my breast milk supply plummeted. I then had to make the choice to breastfeed my son or stay fat. I sacrificed my needs so I could provide my son with breast milk. But that was 1 year ago. Yep, he’s been weaned for 1 year and I’m still fat. I turn 30 years old in October and I made myself a promise that I will not celebrate my 30th birthday being the woman I am today. I want to celebrate my 30th birthday being at least 30 lbs lighter. I will not celebrate my birthday as a woman who weighs over 200 lbs.

I want me back, I want my attitude, I miss my sass, and I miss being me. I miss being healthy. I can’t believe being able to run is something that should not be taken for granted. I can’t run after my kids in my backyard because it hurts my ankles. I can’t bend over and tie their shoes. I’m embarrassing. I recently went to my daughter’s school to help out in her classroom and a friend of hers asked her if her mom was pregnant! I’m NOT this girl, why did I allow myself to get like this? I refuse to accept that this is who I am because it’s not. If I lost a finger, I would still be me; just because my finger is gone doesn’t mean I’m not still Brandee. Same goes with my weight.

By now you’re probably totally confused about the reason I’m writing you but talking about myself the entire time. The reason I’m writing you is because I seen myself in you in your pictures, I seen the drive, the motivation you had…I feel it. I have that same motivation, the same drive to be somebody and to do something with my body. However, I don’t know how. I actually purchased and read the “Eat Clean Diet” book last year and was left totally clueless even after reading it. I need help to get me started and on the right track. I’m writing you to ask if you’d be willing to write me personalized meal plans. I’m willing to pay you for your service whether it’s thru PayPal or check by mail. I’m asking for help. I’m asking you, because you were there…right here where I am now and you did it! You are my inspiration and I want to learn from you.

Please consider my offer, I really want the help and I swear to you, I will not let myself down. I will not let you down. Consider it, please?

I currently do Zumba and I’m really good at it :) I go 3 nights a week. I will be incorporating some other cardio/weights in soon. I just hate beating myself up at the gym to come home and eat what I just burnt off in calories in and then some because I don’t know how. I totally just poured my heart out to you, ha-ha – I’m sorry.

If you want you can email me at brandee_eagles@hotmail.com

I really hope to hear from you.


Sincerely,

Brandee
                                                                                                     

I wrote that email this Wednesday. Frantically checking my email every day, several times a day, okay a lot of times a day desperately hoping for a reply. Well........I GOT ONE!!!!!!! Read below.
                                                                                                    
wow girl, first let me say that i am so thrilled and happy that you reached out to me. that is why i love doing what i do. not for money, not to be a celebrity but to help women like you. bc YOU are where I was just a few short years ago. i would love to help you out.

i want to sit down and write you a long message. i have three kids running around right now making me crazy but i had to at least reach out and let you know i got your message. i would be thrilled to help you. i will sit down and really get detailed with you definitely within the next day or two. so hang in there. help is on the way! xoxo
                                                                                                       

Do you all know how fucking awesome this is?!! I'm sooooo fucking excited. Yes, I'm cursing - get over it! Don't spoil my moment haha! This lady was in my shoes once. After 3 children she weighed 200 lbs...now (drum roll please)...she is a fitness/bikini competitor (recently placing 3rd in Miami) on the cover of fitness magazines, Woman's World, spokesperson for the Eat-Clean Diet. She is absolutely amazing! AND - she has agreed to help ME! ME ya'll! She agreed to help ME! I am beyond stoked. Say good-bye to my fat ass because it's out the damn door. I will not celebrate my 30th birthday this year as a woman weighing over 200 lbs. B.E.L.I.E.V.E

That's all folks.

Here is her blog if you want to check her out



Tuesday, March 8, 2011

What Breastmilk has that Formula Doesn't

Natural Nutrition Source
Why breastmilk will always be better than formula.

Formula feeding is the longest lasting uncontrolled experiment lacking informed consent in the history of medicine."

— Frank Oski, MD retired editor, Journal of Pediatrics

Protection against infection

Children who are formula fed are at significant risk for infection. We have just come to accept that infants get RSV, rotavirus and ear infections. They are not supposed to be diseases of infants, but in the USA, the largest consumer of formulas world wide, we hospitalize many, many, many infants each winter with those diseases. The great majority of those infants are formula fed.

In fact, the number one risk factor for kids getting ear infections is bottle feeding: not day care, not smoke exposure, but formulas. Think about the loss of work, the exposure to antibiotics, the midnight purchases of medicine for fever and rehydration solutions, and visits to me that could be avoided if more families chose to breastfeed their infants.

You see, infection fighting cells of the body are present in abundance in breastmilk and are not found at all in breastmilk substitutes. So children who are formula fed are not just at risk for ear infections but diarrhea (from rotavirus, E .Coli, cholera,Giardia, and respiratory infections (like RSV, influenza, H. flu, pneumococcus). Plus, non breastfed kids get more meningitis (From H.flu, pneumococcus, herpes, and group B strep).

Protection against inflammation

Normal infant guts are "leaky" in the first 10 days or so of life. Ingredients in colostrum stop pathogens from attaching to the gut, and creating inflammation. Inflammation is bad, and those children not breastfed are susceptible to complication of inflammation.

For example, these factors in breastmilk protect premature infants from a potentially fatal gut complication called necrotizing enterocolitis (NEC). Children born at 30 weeks of gestation have a 6-10 fold increase in their risk for NEC if they are formula fed.

Chemical Nutrition Source
Protection against Cancer

A study done inn 2002 showed that for every 12 months a mom breastfeeds, her risk of breast cancer decreases 4.3% as compared to women who never nursed. Another showed a 54% reduction for women who breastfed for greater than 24 months.

A study in 1999 looked at the risk of leukemia for kids who had never been breastfed versus those who were. Children who were breastfed had a 21% reduction in risk of childhood leukemia. Said another way, children who are never breastfed are at greater risk for leukemia than their breastfed counterparts.

Protection against lifetime illnesses

Breastfed kids have less obesity as they enter kindergarten. They are 26 times less likely to develop insulin dependent diabetes. Formula fed kids are at higher risk of developing eczema.

A consistent recipe

Breastmilk has had the same recipe for many, many, many years. It hasn't needed a fan fare of advertising for every new ingredient change, because the ingredients haven't needed to change. The celebrating that formula companies do about the improvements in their product are really what happens when a deficit is fixed. Formula companies realized that their product needed to be fortified with vitamin D when kids started having seizures from low calcium levels. They tried to help combat adult high blood pressure problems with a type of formula low in sodium until kids started having seizures from low sodium levels. When there wasn't enough iron in their product, they found out after many kids became anemic, and that iron-deficiency anemia, as we have learned, has had developmental consequences. Plus, formulas in powder form have the potential to be contaminated with bacteria. The ready-to-feed and concentrate are sterilized, but powders aren't. The great majority of formula recalls have been because powdered forms were contaminated with potentially harmful bacteria.

Other ingredients, found in breastmilk, are still missing...we are seeing other additions to formula, like infection- fighting oligosaccharides, insulin, and prebiotics. That means that they are not in the recipe now.

So what if all the ingredients in breastmilk got in formula some day...

So let's say they get all the ingredients in breastmilk (all the white blood cells, antibodies, anti-inflammatory cells, and biologically active compounds that are so important to our children's' health) were put in formula... would breastmilk still be better? Yes. Of course. The milk a mom makes for her baby is perfect for her child. Nobody else can ever make a more perfect food. The antibodies in a mom's milk are specific to the viruses and bacteria that mom and baby came into during that day. The composition of the milk varies from the beginning of the day to the end of the day, the beginning of the feeding to its end, changes to meet a growing baby's needs and is flavored with foods that mom ate, making every mouthful of food different, and perfect for that baby. No formula company can ever make a more perfect food for your baby than you can as that baby's mother.


I need a disclaimer. Many "breastfeeding failures" fall directly at the hands of healthcare providers, hospitals and other people who should know better. You can read "Temple of Doom" on this page to get my take on that. And some women just can't breastfeed. If donor milk isn't available, we need to have substitutes that support the growth of our children.

Dr. Thomas

READ MORE ON BREASTFEEDING HERE

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Crying It Out

Sleep deprivation is one of the hardest parts of being a new parent. Or an experienced one. Or being a person in general. I would guess that most parents are trying a "crying it out" method because they are tired and other things they have tried haven't worked. I think that's because we are placing 21st century values onto an infant who is obeying instinct and maybe we don't understand that instinct. We have to understand that the way we do things is a new idea...but the babies we bring into this world don't know about the way we do things. They are programmed to do things that normal, vulnerable human babies have been doing for all time.

Human babies are really vulnerable. If you've ever seen what baby elephants or horses can do at birth, you know that they can walk shortly after birth, and are running soon afterwards. Why can't humans do that? Well, if we waited until the brain was mature enough for our kids to walk, nevermind run, the baby's head would be too big to come out safely. We don't need to run to stay safe. Our gestation period is designed to make sure that our kids arrive in the world with their future intact-- our kids arrive in the world when it's safest for the brain to come out.

Our children arrive in the world as the most neurologically immature primate of them all, and remain the most dependent on a caregiver for the longest period of time. Our kids can't keep themselves warm, get food, walk, speak, or reason. They can't manipulate us and they can't consciously choose to make you look like a bad parent.

What do we know about their sleep patterns? Well, they need to be near a caregiver-- mostly mom. It makes sense if you think about it. This immature baby, with little in the way of self-preservation skills, needs to hang out with the source of food and warmth, with the person who is most likely to wake up to meet the needs that they express in the middle of the night. There are beautiful videos of moms and babies who are almost totally in sync in terms of sleep cycles, showing them waking at about the same time several times during the night, with mom responding to the baby and the baby, who rarely cries, getting their multiple needs met.

Normal babies sleep during the day and are up at night. That is normal and expected and nothing we can do to change that. The predators that hunt humans hunt at night. Instinctively, that means they should be up and night and sleep when the threat is less. That also means that parents need to sleep when the baby is sleeping to avoid all the great things that go along with sleep deprivation.

The littlest kids are not crying for any other reason than to communicate displeasure with something. And it gets our attention. So much so, that I think kids develop a parent- specific pitch that affects us more than any other person listening to that same cry. Smart plan-- it keeps the kids safe and lets them know that their parents are there and meeting their needs.

Sleep training techniques that suggest that you allow children to cry to learn to soothe themselves have never been shown to do anything good for children. They may get the kids to sleep, and therefore help the parents sleep, but they have been associated with attachment issues, behavior problems and anxiety. There is no emotional, social or intellectual benefit to the kids, nor has it ever been shown to help us develop into healthy adult sleepers.

There is a phenomenon called "learned helplessness" that comes from some experiments that showed that if you ask enough and never get what you need, you stop asking. You learn, in the case of a crying baby, not that you are "soothed" but that nobody is coming. That's not something, I imagine, that most people want their kids to learn, no matter how tired you are. And ask yourself-- can you soothe yourself? I'm 40 something and I'm pretty sure I can't without shoe shopping or an episode of True Blood. I see commercial after commercial for Ambien and Lunesta, so I'm pretty sure the adult population has sleep problems. Plus, as an adult, we can get up, read, watch TV, get on Facebook, get warm milk, or call a friend. People who don't feel safe in their environment, like those suffering from depression will often say they can't sleep, or can't stay asleep.

What can our kids do if they can't sleep, if they don't feel safe in their environment? They can't take medication, read, watch TV, or do anything like we can. My advice, if the kids are crying, is to go in and comfort them. Nurse them if you are nursing. Snuggle and enjoy.

I hear all the time "OOOOH don't do that, once you give in, it'll never stop." Sure it will. In fact, there are going to be days when your children are going to be embarrassed to be seen in public with you. Their childhood will be over before you know it. Enjoy your time with them while it lasts.